happy chinese new year!
so, the first day of the lunar new year's almost over.
i've had better.
for some reason, it just didn't feel as good as it felt in the past 16+ years.
relatively boring except for the occasional visit by relatives.
perhaps its due to the change in the routine schedule that my family has followed for many years;
or might it be because of the many uncertainties swirling in the air right now;
or maybe its just me.
maybe i'm just being stupid.
i'm really sorry,
i try,
but it doesn't feel like that happy a new year.
lets hope the next 2 days as well as the following 362 are better.
dammit, i have tons of homework to be done;
so much work, so little time.
i doubt i'll be able to do them.
should i continue running for council?
where will i be posted to?
so many unanswered questions, no answers.
i can't help it, but feel like i'm turning into some emo loser with constant moodswings.
someone save me, please.
i can predict that,
this month is gonna be one of the hardest ones to live through in my life.
please give me the strength.
why do i keep thinking of you?
the strength to make the right decisions,
the strength to treasure what i have,
the strength to get over disappointments,
the strength to start afresh,
the strength to be myself.
Labels: Blues, Misc, Occasions
