its a classic cliche that you dont know what you've got until its passed by..

when schooling, you will never believe when people say that studying's so much better than working- so you drag your feet day by day to school, thinking that the lucky people out there who don't have to study have it good.



but when your time comes, seems like it isnt as good as it seems huh?



jc life seems like a distant past heaven that wasn't long enough.
studying seems like a bliss.



that organised life that was, where time not spent studying was time wasted;
at least my brain wasn't degenerating.


hahah well i guess its kinda up to oneself to make use of your own time properly, all the more when you've nothing much to do: aka no real commitments such as work you have to complete or academic stuff you gotta worry about.
life has become such for me that i yearn for bookouts, but when i actually have free time,
it's wasted on the computer doing nothing productive in particular.

sure, there's no stress nor pressure.
but it just makes me feel lazy and lousy.
and i guess i have to admit it's even beginning to affect my life and relationships with people and my family..



its a syndrome that i believe affects many 19y/o guys in singapore.
the 'twilight zone' that we can so easily fall into.


guess it's up to me to do something.

time to finish up my driving and start to learn something soon (:
and of course, put more effort into appreciating the presence of those around me and more importantly, find ways to express that appreciation properly.
=)