life's life and thats that.
the world carries on spinning no matter what happen,
people move on.

life in aj's been alright i guess,
save for screwed timetables and stuff.
thank goodness once again for the people there who've helped.
you cat high brothers.
and not to forget zhao, jaime and the works.
(:
and all you great people who've kept me going all this while with your constant encouragement!
you guys rock so much!
<3
how it will all turn out, i have no idea.
ahh.
my body aches. thank you, cool pe lessons.
tomorrow:1.5hr morning pe+hockey.
woohooooooo.

..........

oh that sinking feeling when you read something and poof,
you realise that the something's about you.
all about you.

to whomever it concerns:
no matter how hard i think, i cannot seem to find a way to come up with an explanation.
yes, i agree that i've been screwed up for the past few weeks.
very screwed up.
so naturally, the things i do and the words i say would be screwed up too. i guess.
and you won't believe how sorry i am for that,
honestly.
i can't apologise to all of you whom i've affected
with my screwed up behaviour and actions.

and yet, i have to say something.
i do not lie.
what you may perceive of my actions, i cannot control.
all i can do is try to explain, and the rest, is up to you.

i know that i've not told everyone everything.
but you have to understand that there's a reason behind everything.
maybe i'm insecure,
maybe i'm cowardly,
maybe i'm uncertain of what exactly i'm going through in the first place,
or
maybe i'm confused.
or maybe, its all of the above?
or is this situation exactly why i kept it in?

maybe i couldn't think straight
and had no idea who else (if any) was not another one of them.
to be absolutely honest, not everyone knows what happens to my life anymore.
not even some of the people whom i've considered my closest friends ever since my age was nothing more than a single digit.

perhaps i was being foolish and stupid
or

perhaps i just needed some time?

so, please don't do this.
i'm just so tired of being troubled.
i'm so sorry if you feel hurt but i'll tell you this,
i'll never neglect my friends ever again.
so please, let me make it up.
i'll tell you everything you want to know
and more.
i've nothing to hide anymore.
everything's all over anyway.

please do come tell me.